Hate .........

Why cry ? Why sad ? Why u scare ? Why u fell pain ? Why I am not happy ? why I help ppl , ppl happy more pain I got why why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ??

Every time I make ppl happy , help ppl that need my help and giv ppl a change , that jus make more and more hate that I had got. When i call tham help me , some say u do it uself , finish it uself and walk away live it for me to do alone.Many years , i jus do it myslf . Sometime got group work ,I help them do finish and then I end up I get the lower and the other no help jus get more high then me.

Some When I am joining them ply a game , I jus want to ply the game enjoy the game.In the end , I cannot ply . they jus oh sorry jy u didnt have a parnet sorry and then kik me out of the game U KNOW WHY because I stupid , idio , jus be a fool , ugle thing . No me , they more enjoy , more fun , more happy without me . I jus a toy in their eye , when their need jus use me , when they dont need me jus throw it far far away.

Ya , I know i am jus a stupid thing in you eye , a ugle , stupid , no use , dull in u eye, dont care my feeling , dont care my heart jus throw it like a ball . waaaa...so happy so happy hahahahaha jus thought me like a thing can use and at any time can throw. Oh jus like a tool no felling cannot move and use any time they can and then broken and throw it in dusbin. That a life of a tool.

In my life I study many moral , art and music to avoid my hate , my anger in my heart and control it , dont let it come out but their action made me more anger hate on my heart come out.
.When it come out I not the jun yee they know , my other side of me will come out. I want crush , destroy their hope their face , made them suffer same as like me lonely ugle no smart the pain same like me . pain

Once I ask god why they had the intelligent , their beuti and the talent , why I didnt get one jus giv me some boo shit thing . Ya i know u mean those thing jus TRY HARD but in the What i get last the most thing I got jus NOTHING NOTHING , I am very tired of those jus made me get sick .

oh man pls jus giv me a thing . They their beuti talent , their intell to make fun of me like Jun yee u dont handsome , u dont how to read book one , that in they that guy very ugle , go see face in the mirro , jus look at u face ugle , face problem , jus look at u face got change u face , dono study meh stupid , dont waste u father money still come here study , that my girl friend dont talk to him face problem , u hair look stupid . That becuse of my parent i jus want a modan hair style but their force us to cut it wear their old type clother need look at the face. I jus want find some friend go out shoping buy some clother that i like why i cannot event do that

Even I cannot love a person becouse of me , i cannot talk him I love her , i cannot send a gift . U know what becuase of those star, 'waaa their face very handsome I wish my boy friend like them this lah that lah ' boot shit jus a face they too why dont put a pic there in their side of the bed .

Whyyyy i cannot have those kind of face their interlligent and the talent . At last , I jus get pain and hate and made me a lonely guy . Every thing i do myslef why no friend no one help , jus no one let a hand come to put me up jus leave in a dark hold that no one care me . i still need to make face a joking face made them happy and I look painful.

Why i help them jus let so be it , put some rock on it let them fall into the dark hold.Dont help him let him fall let them know my pain hahahahaahah i like it i like it so be it